Tuesday, October 14, 2008
YESTERDAY was the first time i cried after a really really long time, and i cried really badly. ENGLISH really freaks me out. If i fail, one word. DOOMED. The crying thing all started when i was having late lunch with my mum at IKEA. She randomly asked about my english and i said, i may retain if i don't pass my English. At that point of time, my whole mood changed. I was really happy before that la. After IKEA, i went for tuition with a really heavy heart. I came home and was so worried and sad that i didnt even bother to go on line. At like 9.30? yeah i went to my parents room and told my mum i wanted to sleeep as i was tired. My mum saw through me, she knew i was worried and stuff so she told my dad, MY DAD! i've beeen keeeping my english results from him throughout the year.
So, the "conversation" went like that.
( i was looking down the whole time)
father: I heard that if you don't pass your English, you may retain. (tears just started to come out)me: yeah.father: You see, i told you so many times that i want to help you and now it's the final exams.(i kept quiet, he left the room)
he came back.
father: And your mother said you wrote out of point for you essay?me: i don't know if the teacher will get what im trying to say, cos i wrote about my grandmother as my roots and ROOTS was the topic.(He left again)
he came back again.
father: anyway, just be prepared to retain, it's good in a way.I STARTED CRYING LIKE SOME MAD DOG OK.me: No i dont want!father: then what you want me to do?me: help me speak to my principal.yeah, so the conversation ended cos i decided to go to sleeep. I CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEEP. i was so darn scared and worried.
I went to school this morning and when i saw Carmen, i told her everything that happened and i started to cry. As we were having a meeting, everyone was like,
omgosh, is she ok? yeah, thank you carmen for comforting me, i really appreciate it. i love you, PAU! THEN, we went to the assembly ground and i told maltose( melshen) about it. i started crying again, like omg la. THANK YOU MELSHEN TOO! i love you lar, thanks for the letter. it really cheered me up:)
so yeah, shit morning.
TODAY'S RESULTS DAY. Got back E maths, chemistry and Chinese. quite ok lar. I REALLY REALLY HOPE I PASS MY ENGLISH.
Oh yeah, went to Astons with melshen, glenda vanessa and megan after school. i decided to reward myself:) And went to melshen's house to seee JUNO! hehe. HAHA, dang it. every second im just thinking about english! AHHHHH!
anyway, i think im gonna switch to livejournal. blogger has like no privacy. so yeah.
I REALLY REALLY HOPE I PASS MY ENGLISH. PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Science Centre tomorrow for NWSP:(
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